Good Bye 2009

Sometimes in life, when things are brought to your attention, you should follow your first instinct.... It's ok to let go, I guess it's time..

I think that maybe ur only allowed a certain amount of tears per person/situation & perhaps i have used all of mines up &/or im just over it! this yr has been rough! alot of pain,tears & most of all lessons! & if i had 2 do it all over again! i would do it the same way! all of it contributed 2 my new found strength! & 4 that im grateful!

Trey Songz I Invented Sex

Any one who knows me knows I am a big Trey Songz fan! I wouldn't never guess that some that sexy could come out of Petersburg. So I was on twitter (side note Simplytelly)and I see Tre Tre tweet the link for his new video.... this is all I am going to say if you aren't a fan....This video should make you become one....enjoy lord know I have! (o_O)

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When it comes to a relationship regardless of what relationship you have. You have to have a strong foundation. Without a strong foundation you have nothing. So when ever I meet someone I tried to build a strong a foundation so if I decided to fuck with them on another level I know if we come across a bump in the road we should be grown enough to sit down and talking about it and work it out without it that foundation fucking up.

For a while I have cut anyone off if they tired to get close to me. Why? Because I am beyond tired of getting hurt. So I put up a wall, and it's like as soon as I let a layer of my "wall" down he fuck up and I put up more walls. And I know some times I make it harder for the next (and everyone do it) but I never mean too. I am 25 years...too young to get married (for me anyway) but old enough to know I want a meaningful relationship. I am a good women. I know how to cook, I will clean, I have no extra baggage (b4 I talk to anyone new I tied up my loose ends with the ex/pass), I never ask a man to do anything for me...why because if you MAN then I shouldn't have to ask...it should be a giving. I am a strong black women who is looking my King. I need someone who can except me for who I am not who you can mold me into. I am human but as human I have imperfections. I want him to look at my imperfections as perfection. I just wanna get what I put in...in a relationship.

I just don't get the times that we are living in. It's like now days no one sit down and get to know the person before they have sex with them. Shit most of the times you don't even know the person real name you fucking only the nickname. What happen to going on real dates. And I aint talking about going to the other person house at night and chillin and end up fucking! What happen to going to movies, park, bowling out traveling something!!! If I'm talking or in a relationship we need to do some day actives lol. Now I don't mind doing in house activities but the whole time we are dating it don't need to be in the house.

So now I am talking to some one. I like him...I do it's weird because I haven't liked some one who I would want to be in a relationship in a long time. Even when I was dealing with stoop box I never thought of him being long time. But I see him being long term. I don't know though. Part of me want to just open up to him and what not. But I don't know who he feels about me. Some people aren't good in expressing their feelings. I know like me I am better at writing my feelings then telling someone. But anywho...back to him.... I don't know what it is about him. I mean we talk on the phone for hours and don't get tired of talking and we actually have real conversations. Anyone who know me knows I don't tell a boy that I like him and I told him...I'm noticing that I'm jive breaking some one my hell no's for him. It's like it makes sense to me but if I put it in words lol it don't we shall see.

So I am going to end this bc my fingers hurt lol..

Loved or to be Loved

I'm sitting back and wondering if it is more important to love or be loved. I read this title in a group and after reflecting upon it for a while I have come to a few different answers.. Doesn't everyone really want to be loved ? To feel that someone out there is feeling you as completely as you are feeling them..? I know that I want to be loved.. I want that man that makes my heart beat so fast that I can barely stand it.. The man that can look into my eyes and know what I am thinking.. The man that can ease my heartache with a touch of his hand on my soul..
On the other hand, I believe that it is equally as important to love.. Not just say, Oh I love you.. But to truly give of yourself a inner most love that comes from deep within.. It is funny but you hear people say all the time ( I love you ) as they are leaving their loved one behind and they are off to their day. Do you think they love them, or is it just words that some people just say? I really am not one to know who loves and who doesn't.. I do know that I love hard and I love completely..
So my choice is BOTH..........What is yours?

Know your Role Bitches

Wifey is the sexiest, most successful and most respected of all the women. She is loved, needed and wanted by her man...she is VIRTUALLY IRREPLACEABLE. She is the girl that the guy loves and will always love, he never wants to see her with another man...BUT he will cheat on her with Baby Girl until he is mature enough to realize that if he gets caught or f--ks up in any way and loses Wifey, he would be screwed, and NEVER be happy again. Wifey gets along with mom, is independent, never nags, loves to dress sexy for her man, can cook and loves to keep a clean house. Wifey gets called 5 or 6 times a day. Drawback of Wifey, she loves public displays of affection...which might interfere with the acquisition of a Side Piece.


Baby Girl is ALWAYS just as hot as wifey and usually has a very active social life...she IS replaceable, thinks she's the next Wifey, but will only be Wifey if an extreme disaster takes place. Baby Girl gets some of the benefits of Wifey, like quality time every now and then and even presents on birthdays and holidays, but that's as far as it goes. The main reason to have Baby Girl is in case Wife really really f--ks up, she can be replaced in a matter of weeks because Baby Girl has been groomed to slip right into her spot. Be careful of Baby Girl, she tends to be just as attached as Wifey and therefore can be dangerous to the Side Piece. Biggest benefit of Baby Girl...she is extremely private and hates causing a scene, baby girl can come into the same restaurant as you and wifey and wifey will have no idea you two even know each other. Baby Girl is a master of disguise as well.

The Side Piece, usually a female that the guy uses only for sex and other pleasures, she is usually the one that he goes to for that 3-some or some late night head after the club. When Wifey is acting up and Baby Girl is at work, the Side Piece is usually the one to hold him over for a few hrs. He can meet with the Side Piece for reasons other than sex, but normally that only happens one week during the month. Side Pieces are hard to spot when they are out because most of her friends are either Wifey's or Jump Offs. Drawback of having more than one side piece, they usually know each other somehow...we kinda think there is a side piece network or something. Try to keep your side piece count below 4 if possible.

The Jump Off...every mans dream and worst nightmare. She is trying to move up in life, wants to be a Side Piece or Wifey but doesn't know how to go about it. They are just the girls he hollas at when he is with his boys...she is usually stored in the cell phone by a nickname because he barely remembers her real name and where he met her...he only recalls how fat her %#&@$! was. The Jump Off gets called in emergencies only, when wifey is moody, baby girl is on vacation and side piece is with her baby's father. The Jump Off is extremely dangerous in public for a number of reasons, she is usually 5 other guys jump off as well, so she might cause drama with you and one of those dudes if you slip up, she also has no problem confronting you in the mall when you are with Wifey (something that baby girl would NEVER do) and the most dangerous thing about Jump Off...she ALWAYS seems to find out where you live and or work.

Relationship

How can you give love if you never loved at all- Yorrel Hughes

For some reason the Trina song, "Single Again", is blasting in my head (and that's not one of my fav songs either) I have always been single but it wasn't until recently where I've decided to fully embrace it. I used to look at some of my friends and be like I want a relation ship like he/she have. The old me would have shouted out N.A.S (Niggas Aint Shit) but I'm beyond that now. Inotice that must of the men I deal with isn't shit lol because I knew what they was about from the jump, I just didn't pay attention to the signs. So I end up planning our furture lol and didn't realize he wasn't ready. So I now realize that I can rush into anything it when it's ready. If it's meant to be then it will be. My brother asked me If I ever was in love, real love. And I couldn't really answer it because when I am done talking/dating a person I cut tieds with them there no need to have a friend ship after wards. For what we don't have kids so why do we need to keep a friend ship going on? I never was one of those people and I don't understand how some people can remain friends but to each it own. Back to my brother question have I ever been in love.....

The first person who came in mind is Carlos awe geesh lol where do I began... I think back on that relationship I truly love him. I accepted his flaws and all. I believe he was the first person to actually treat me like a queen and he love me for who I am and not what he can get from me or what I'll do for him. Now I will admit I can be hard on men. But I don't think its just men becuse I am had on my friends too. But I can remember one day I went to his place and it was this girl at his apartment and he gonna try and feed me this line that the biitch was there for his brother. Now one if she was there for your brother then why she in your damn face, two yall was sitting too close for comfort. Now I let it go bc he never gave me a question to doubt him. But then she called him at three in the morning (why is she calling you). So I answer the phone the biitch was bold to ask for him....so you know me and her had some words then me and him had some words. So me and him still kick it with him I mean damn I love him. But when I caught him hugging her that's when I knew it was over. I don't care how much I love a person, how good the dick is I never will give you the power of making me loose my damn mind nope NEVER so it was dead right then and there.

Now it's Stoop Box...ugh this nigga I dont even know why I fuck with him. He is cute I give him that. The sex is not good so it's not that lmao. I don't know why I deal with him. I say deal with him kinda lol. I mean if he calls when he's home I'll chill with him and what not we prob. will end up having sex but I do it. And I know that's chicken headish of me but hey every girl have that one ass hole who you go chicken headish over lol so blah I don't know what it is but I'm deaded that now too

Then there Mix-Signals...mayne I like him and I don't know why. He's nothing like the boys I usually date which can be good. But it's like I find myself kinda not being myself when I'm around him.... because we talk all the time and he be like he don't like a girl like this and he don't like a girl like that. So I find myself changing. And I refuse to change myself for his ass! I mean damn I am not asking him to change. No he isn't telling me to act a certain way either he's doing it indirectly. I think honestly we from two different worlds so blah...


I don't know where my last relationship will take me so I'm just chilling. I need to get my life in order.

J. Holiday

J. Holiday Second Round is finally out!!!! I'm so excited!!! I am a big fan. But I don't think he get the credit her deserve (just like Tweet). His first CD is good. But this CD is beyond good. The first CD gave you a nice preview of what was to come. I don't really judge a "new" artist base on thier first cd because on the first CD I feel it's to gain fans so of course it's going to be good or at least decent, and if you have a promotion team you too can be an Ashanti lol. On Second Round you can tell that his voice has grown alot, like it have gotten stronger and he have mature. Some of must listen too is FALL I can listen to this song on repeat for hours and not get tired of it at all, Dont' go, Run into my Arms, Make That Sound. I am a fan of J. Holiday not only because he is cute, but because unlike some artist out here he can actually sing. When I meet him at Walmart, yes he was at Walmart at the old layaway he was cool and when I asked him to sing he did and he actually sound like he does on the CD, gotta love that. I think it's rare that you can have a artist who can actually sing. Like Latoya Luckett. I love her music on the CD but singing LIVE hell naw cut that short. One day doing my cable days I was watching 106 and Park (doing my channel surfing days) and she was on there and sound a hot ass mess shame on it all. I was disappointed no wonder why Beyonce did care when she left Beyonce and them bka Destiny Child lol. But all said and alll I'll say go buy the CD not burn lol it's worth it.